wounds, scars, and healing

I ran across this excerpt this morning, and thought I’d share it you all… hope you all have a great weekend!

FROM LONG EXPERIENCE of working with various traumas, I have come to believe that with a commitment to hard work and prayer, even the worst is healable. I don’t mean that a deeply wounded person will somehow be able to just go on with life as if the wounding never occurred. Scars can be redeemed and turned into gifts, becoming a source of wisdom, love, and even joy that can be tapped to help others. Again and again I have seen this happen as hurting people experience the healing of Christ. A deeply wounded, profoundly healed person is like a tree that has grown around a boulder; sometimes the tree actually incorporates the boulder into its structure. A boulder tree is especially beautiful and becomes an inspiration to those still struggling to grow around their own obstacles.

– Tilda Norberg
Gathered Together: Creating Personal Liturgies for Healing and Transformation

God of This City

I heard this story during the worship conference I attended, and Chris Tomlin told this same story about the worship song, “God of This City”. It was in Pattaya, Thailand (he mis-pronounces it), and when I heard the story during the concert, I broke. It’s so powerful to hear… He’s the God of this City, God of Thailand, and this world….

Even though I’m no longer in Thailand, I need to be convicted to pray for those who have yet to hear, or accept Christ.  I hope I won’t forget…

Enjoy.

You’re the God of this City
You’re the King of these people
You’re the Lord of this nation
You are

You’re the Light in this darkness
You’re the Hope to the hopeless
You’re the Peace to the restless
You are

There is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City
Greater thing have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City

no more, please!

There seems to be a wave of movement coming over many congregations across the nation, and it’s no new problem to the church, yet “for such a time as this”, DIVISION is cutting the church at our legs, and leaving us sucking up dust from the ground.  And while we lay lifeless on the ground, all we can think about is how dirty we are, and why we should clean up before just getting up and continuing to RUN in this race. DISCLAIMER: yes, I will say some things about my own church, yet my purpose is simply to reveal changes that need to be made to many congregations, but should be applied to the universal church.

Over the past 3-4 months, and especially since my return from Thailand, I’ve found myself making a common mistake as a Christian, which is looking too much at my individual self, and not seeing enough of the bigger picture.

This is a call to the universal church.  Some may call this prophecy, but whatever it is, there is a severe and strong warning to the church: WE MUST UNITE.  WE MUST REACH THE LOST, BROKEN, and DYING in our world around us.

Not that any of this is new news, we’ve heard this for years and years, yet there has been a striking turn for many churches in the past year.  During these economic times of difficulty, there should be unity and re-casting of vision for the church, yet Satan knows this is a prime time to steal, kill and destroy.  Over and over again, I’ve heard repeatedly that the last year has been a very difficult for ministry.  Either this means things will get better, or it means that God is preparing his church, his bride, for war, for battles, for even GREATER DIFFICULTIES to come.

How is it that we’ve become consumers and so individualistic?  Our society screams these things at us, so it’s only natural that we would expect all these same requests from God, right?

Three years ago, I read “The Present Future” by Reggie McNeal, and I encourage any church leaders to read this book.  I still deeply agree with most of what this author and Christian leader says about the church today.  We are bound and locked into four walls, and yet we think people who are not Christians will bust through our doors looking for God.  REALITY CHECK: people who are “searching” or “seekers”, in this post-modern society will NOT look for these answers in God or church.  They’ll find it in other types of spirituality, or simply within themselves.  Oprah’s “religion” is a perfect example of this CULTIC attitude.

Broken down to tears last night, I realized that the issues within my own church body are much greater than what so many attendees are feeling toward the letting go of/agreement that our Pastor needed to move on.  The issue is not that “we don’t have a Pastor and we need one desperately”, it’s much greater.  The issue is that Satan, the DECIEVER, is causing us to focus more on our own problems rather than realizing that we are in a huge battle!!! For our church specifically, there are nearby apartment complexes filled with low-income families that need to see and EXPERIENCE the LOVE of JESUS CHRIST!!!

The purpose of the church is much like the role of the synagogue was in Biblical times, more specifically the intertestamental period (also known as the 400 years of silence between the Old and New Testaments in the Bible).  Everyone went weekly to the Temple to worship, make sacrifices, and give their tithing, but within Jerusalem and other cities, smaller communities of Jews used synagogues to worship more regularly, collect for the needs of their own smaller communities, and minister on a more individual basis.

The universal church needs to UNITE in our call to reach the lost and unsaved.  In Matthew 28, Jesus commissioned everyone, all Christians, to preach the gospel and spread his love to the ends of the earth.  Yet, he always prayed for unity for all the believers also.

I’m not saying that I’m a perfect example of all these things, but there needs to be a significant change in our mindset as Christians.  We don’t want to put ourselves in a bubble so that we are untouched by the world, yet we know we are not to conform to the patterns of the world, but rather be transformed by the renewing of our minds (Romans 12).  Our call is to minister to those who NEED love, who NEED grace, who just need to see the face of Christ.

I don’t intent to draw a pointing finger and my specific church in this blog, but seriously, why are we even here on earth still?  Obviously God calls all his people to himself, and if we are alive and breathing, we are to be SERVING.

Sorry, on my soap box, I’ll get down now.  But let us LOVE unconditionally as Christ loves, and let’s forget our own worries, wants, and hurts, and let’s SERVE our LIVING God.  Let us not forget that we have God’s Spirit- the HOLY SPIRIT in our hearts.  Let’s turn back to him.  Let’s remember that we are in a serious battle, a serious war, and engaging in a war for souls…. That means an eternity in heaven or hell is at stake.

I recently spent a great deal of time pouring over what the Kingdom of God is, and what that looks like on earth.  The truth is that this raging war, and battle is about the coming of the Kingdom of God.  Yes, it will come, but part of our role is to battle and war in the coming of the Kingdom of God.  Satan wants to break the church, the bride of Christ so that we are ineffective, and worthless.  He wants to trip us up so that we are no longer the hands and feet of Jesus Christ, he wants to DESTROY us.  Yet, we already know we have victory in Jesus Christ, and in the end, WE WIN.  SO LET’S KEEP FIGHTING!

it’s all over now.

It’s been a busy couple months between trips up and down the West Coast to showers, parties, weddings, and such, not to mention my classes!  But now things should calm down for awhile.. until Sarah’s wedding in August!

Anyway, I’m officially 6 units down with 30(+) to go for my Master’s degree, but it feels good.  It’s good to know that I can survive doing everything online and it’s doable with everything else I have going on in my life.  I’ll also soon post my paper, as soon as I get a little more time on my hands.

The wedding by the way was BEAUTIFUL!  Emily is a long time friend of mine, since we were 10 years old!  We’ve had our share of awkward times during middle-school, and continued to stay in touch through our college and post-college years.  It was a joy to be apart of her special day.  Congrats to them both!

There was also significance on Saturday because it was the first time since 2006 I’ve been in the States for the 4th of July.  Nothing spectacular of course, I was driving and watching the fireworks from the freeway, but still, I got to celebrate the 4th in the States instead of being overseas!

Anyway, looking forward to some lake time this week, as well as the typical church office stuff for work.  Ah, summer in the States, it’s quite nice!

Once again, maybe a boring blog, but there’s a quick update.

Jeremiah 17:7-8 (thanks Ja!)

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Colorado, worship, the Kingdom of God

Goodness, I have so much running around in my brain.  I feel renewed, yet exhausted at the same time.  Is that even possible?  I guess…

I just got back from an amazing Worship Conference in Colorado Springs, at New Life Church.  I didn’t really know what to expect exactly, it’s been years since I’ve gone to a worship conference, especially one of this number!  There were about 3,000 people there, and over 40 States represented.  Each day was filled with great speakers, amazing times of worship, and great fellowship.

I feel emotionally inspired, yet overwhelmed.  God is so big, why do we always forget this?  My passion and calling to worship ministry was deepened during this conference, in a way I can’t really explain.  Worship is something so sacred, and so unexplainable.  There are so many ways worship ministry can be done in church as well, I’ve only seen a few models of worship.  As a worship leader, I’m called to lead, no matter what the circumstances.  I also must speak and guide with boldness, and will conviction.  I need those.

The Kingdom of God.  Also not a light subject.  I have my big paper due on Sunday, and I’ve been trying all day to get another big dent into it, but it hasn’t happened.  Before I left for the conference, I made myself finish at least the first section, now I’m working on the next.  It’s such a hug subject just to put a definition on… ehhh.  Many of you have asked to read it, I’ll post it on my blog as soon as it’s finished.  The pressure of so many people wanting to read the paper also makes me want to perfect it… I’ll try, but I’m only human, so no heavy pressure, ok?

new albums… reviews

In an attempt to avoid writing my huge paper on the Kingdom of God, and to get ahead on homework before Portland and Colorado, I’m going to write a few album reviews for those looking for some new music:

Snow Patrol: A Hundred Million Suns.  I was a huge fan of their first album, but delayed listening to their new album for a while… but it’s EXCELLENT!  It proves that they can still continue making great music, even after the first hit album.  I don’t listen to the radio, so I’m not sure what tracks are singles now, but this album is a MUST to check out!!

Chris Taylor: Take Me Anywhere. I don’t know much about this new-comer to the Christian music scene, but he’s really good!  Actually, just read he’s been around for a year.  Whatever.  Anyway, he’s good, listen to him.

Keith Urban: Defying Gravity.  I know it’s been out for a little while, but I just got around to listening to it.  Of course it has the single, “Sweet Thing”, which was written for his wife, Nicole Kidman, but I LOVE every single song on the CD!  It’s so good, people, even if you hate country music, you gotta love Keith!!  Check out: “If Ever I Could Love”, and “I’m In” especially.

Black Eyed Peas: The E.N.D. (Energy Never Dies).  Lots of great dance tracks on this album.  BEP.. they’re back people!  Enjoyed the energy on the album, but younger listeners, there are several tracks with language.  Anyway, all in all, love the grooves and beats on the album.

Alright, that’s my review blog for you all.  Check out the artists, and get some new tunes for the summer!  I’m outie!

miles and miles

Upon my arrival back to the States on April 2, I have traveled, and will continue to travel a great many miles!  I know I’ve spoken a little about my travels, but in case you were interested, here’s a bit of how things have gone:

Medford-Redding-Medford for Easter (300 miles)
not to mention our trip from Redding to Sacramento for the Hillsong United Concert (294 miles round trip)

Then there was the trip up to Salem to take Andrea college visiting (227) and back (227)

Medford-Redding-Visalia-Seal Beach-Mission Viejo… (720 miles) then back home (720 miles)

Then a wedding in near-by Klamath Falls (152 miles round trip)

I took a rest from driving for a while…. but right now, I’m in Gold Beach, Oregon and will return back to Medford tomorrow
(324 miles)

Then next weekend I’ll drive up to Portland and back for a bridal shower (546 total)

On the 21st, after my bridal shower I will drive to Sacramento (308 miles) to fly to Denver (888), then back (888) then driving back to Medford (308).

THEN, I will drive back up to Portland for Emily’s wedding (546 total)…..

AND the grand total is:::::::::: 6,451 miles!!!!!  WOW!

WOW, I feel exhausted just  figuring how how many miles I had actually traveled, and will travel!  ANYWAY, I’m in no way complaining about the miles traveled.  I’ve gotten to spend precious time that I cannot get back with people that I love to be with and live life with.  The longer I live, the more I realize how much friendship must be pursued and cultivated in order to continue and last.  Sure, it takes effort, it takes blood, sweat, and sometimes tears, but friends are always worth the effort.  ALWAYS.  Wow, this blog turned into a sentimental, feel-good blog about my friends, and I didn’t even intend it!

quick update real quick-like

It’s strange, for the past two summers, every June I’ve boarded a plane and headed to East Asia or South-East Asia. This time, I am not.

Truthfully, it will be nice to be home for a summer. The last time I was home for summer was in 2006, so weird.

Well, so far this is a really boring blog, and I’d be impressed if you made it this far. Anyway, I have a summer of worship and ministry ahead of me, which I’m really looking forward to. In about three weeks, I plan to head out to Colorado for a Worship Conference which I can’t wait for!

Okay enough of this lame blog.. hope you all are well, whoever reads my blog anymore these days!

words fail

When words fail, I just don’t speak.  Words fail me a lot lately.  

I’ve felt like I’ve been in a daze over the past few weeks, and the thing is that I knew I would feel this way.  I hate feeling like I have no purpose and that I’m wandering.

Each morning, I’ve woken up in a various couch, bed, and location in beautiful Southern California.  With no agenda almost each day, I  have felt like I’ve been wallowing in self-pity, which is not the right approach to things.  People getting married, life happening all around, people in love, people enjoying jobs, people living.  

I feel like I’ve been waiting for something big to happen and to point me in the right direction.  I’m not sure that “big” thing was what I was expecting, but I’m feeling a pull to a place I never wanted to go back to.  I won’t go into details, because everything is really up in the air, and nothing is for sure, but I need to follow my heart on this… even if I don’t understand it.

Thank you those for your thoughts and prayers, I can’t express enough what they mean.  I’m grateful, and blessed beyond measure.

More to come.

 

PS: On Monday I’m starting two (2) courses for my Seminary degree!  I know I haven’t really explained that to many people, but my heart is joyful about it, and I’m really looking forward to this new venture!