As the dance between summer and fall becomes slower, summer gives way to fall, and a million memories rush. Memories of what seems like a past life. Football, high school, happy times, sad times, thankfulness, and everything else I love and hate at the same time. The rain is a familiar friend, but not always a welcomed friend here in Oregon, but, right now it doesn’t matter much. It’s just nice to see a little change in the weather for now.
This fall will be different. I struggle to find the words to say sometimes, but on November 15 I will leave to enter into what often feels like dream land for me, Thailand. Sometimes I have to pinch myself to remember, oh yeah, that was real, I used to live in Thailand! I will be grateful to give up a little fall, to return back to summer, and to a time that feels so long ago, yet at the same time seems like just yesterday. The sights, smells, feeling, I can close my eyes and see it all now.
It is a bittersweet time too. Remembering what was, not only Thailand, but other memories. This is a new chapter, so part of this trip will be addressing and understanding that I may not be called back to SE Asia at all, or not anytime soon, or sooner than I expect. I don’t worry about this, I know what will be, will be.
Either way, it will be an amazing time.
But for now, I will enjoy the cool, crisp mornings, and be super thankful for non-polluted air, and beautiful falls in Oregon.
somehow beautiful 