What lies ahead

As the dance between summer and fall becomes slower, summer gives way to fall, and a million memories rush.  Memories of what seems like a past life.  Football, high school, happy times, sad times, thankfulness, and everything else I love and hate at the same time.  The rain is a familiar friend, but not always a welcomed friend here in Oregon, but, right now it doesn’t matter much.  It’s just nice to see a little change in the weather for now.

This fall will be different.  I struggle to find the words to say sometimes, but on November 15 I will leave to enter into what often feels like dream land for me, Thailand.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself to remember, oh yeah, that was real, I used to live in Thailand!  I will be grateful to give up a little fall, to return back to summer, and to a time that feels so long ago, yet at the same time seems like just yesterday.  The sights, smells, feeling, I can close my eyes and see it all now.

It is a bittersweet time too.  Remembering what was, not only Thailand, but other memories.  This is a new chapter, so part of this trip will be addressing and understanding that I may not be called back to SE Asia at all, or not anytime soon, or sooner than I expect.  I don’t worry about this, I know what will be, will be.

Either way, it will be an amazing time.

But for now, I will enjoy the cool, crisp mornings, and be super thankful for non-polluted air, and beautiful falls in Oregon.

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3 thoughts on “What lies ahead

  1. This is a beautiful post. I’ve never lived outside the country, but am fascinated with the idea of living in an entirely new culture. Ironically, I’m in Oregon this week on business. I’ll be exploring the Portland area today–the Pacific NW is truly a special place!

    1. I’m headed over there for a little over 3 weeks! Tricia it’s so weird thinking about going back!! I mean I always hoped to, but it’s strange that it’s actually happening now… I just decided, why not, I’m buying a ticket!! I come back December 8! Wish EVERYONE was going to be there like it used to be!!

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