i don’t believe the weather man anymore

No seriously, I don’t.  It’s like the weather here in Oregon has become just like the weather in Thailand, it has a mind of it’s own, which actually I don’t mind much at all since we’ve had some beautiful sunny days with the weather getting up to 60 degrees some days.  That’s a good winter to me, seriously.

I’m eating some frozen Thai chicken thing for lunch, and wishing I was down at Sombat’s eating REAL Thai food, I guess this will have to do for now.

I haven’t blogged much about returning home to the States after a year overseas… well I haven’t really blogged much about anything at all in the past year.  Crazy to think that on April 2, 2009 I returned back to the States, almost a year ago.  Time flies, seriously.

The images and feelings are burned deeply in my mind, even still today.  I was sitting, freezing cold in the Portland airport, watching all the unhappy, fat, and dressed in black (I really don’t know if it’s all that slimming as they say) Americans pass me by, on to their next appointment, flight, whatever.  Busy busy busy.  I just sat in shock, staring at their cold, white faces, and wondering what the rush was.  I was used to the warm, tanned and glowing faces of the Thai people, who smiled all the time, even if they were in a bad mood, or if they were having the worst day of their lives.  It was certainly a shock to be back in the States.   I was ready for Spring, and warm weather, but apparently Oregon hadn’t gotten the memo I was coming back.

That day is still crystal clear in my mind, even today.  Once I arrived in Medford, it was cloudy and cold, but I was warmly welcomed by my family, whom I hadn’t seen in 1o months.  On that day, I also remembered the day I had left, the feeling in my stomach of excitement, with no fear at all.  Yet upon my return, I remember feeling very afraid.  Afriad I would forget Thailand, or that I was making the wrong decision to return, or that in this economy I wouldn’t be able to find a job… a job that was where my heart really was… worship ministry.

Thinking back, it’s easy to see I should have trusted, I should have had faith.. more faith than at the time.  Those are all moments I will never forget, mostly because it was a time when I was most vulnerable, most fearful, yet exciting at the same time.

I miss Thailand, a lot, but I know my life here is still an adventure, even though I’m extremely jealous of my dear friends who get to enjoy Koh Samet any weekend they want.  🙂

Blessings to all who still read.. hope you are well.

Prayer

“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.  I do not see the road ahead of me.  I cannot know for certain where it will end.  Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.  But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.  And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.  I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.  And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it.  Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost in the shadow of death.  I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave meto face my perils alone.”

-From Thoughts in Solitude by Thomas Merton

worship

I tend to forget how “new” the concept of congregational singing in worship really is.  There’s lots to be said about the history, but part of Martin Luther’s stand against the Catholic church was the initiation of singing in a language that the people understood (the Mass is in Latin, and at that time, most people didn’t speak or understand Latin), but also to include the singing of the people in worship services.  Then again, Martin Luther at the time also thought that organs were basically an instrument of the devil (some would probably still say this is true today!).  🙂

Anyway, John Wesley was actually an important person with the protestant development of congregational singing, and he urged worshipers to stand while they sang hymns.  This was in the 18th century, not really that long ago, in the scope of time.

John Wesley also gave some pointers and guidelines for singing, “Sing lustily and with good courage.  Beware of singing as if you were half dead, or half asleep; but lift up your voice with strength.  Be no more afraid of your voice now, nor more ashamed of its being heard, than when you sung the songs of Satan” -1761.

I’m not sure what he means by the songs of Satan, but maybe we could apply that to secular music today?  Gosh there are LOTS of great songs on the radio that are songs you just sing out without any fear (unless the window in your car is down)… so why should our worship be quiet on Sunday mornings?  And why are we always “half dead or half asleep”?  This is a call to let our praise be loud, exciting, and full of DRUMS I say!  (Interesting but here’s a fact about faster music, “Some churches use drums in worship; a beat slightly faster than of the human heart enlivens a group of people, gets them on their feet, and unites them into one vibrant body” -Gail Ramshaw).

Anyway, just a few thoughts to share with you all.

Hope you have a blessed Thanksgiving!

Brandon Heath- No Not One

If you get a chance to listen to this song, or this album, DO IT!  Brandon Heath’s album- “What if We”, is an incredible challenge to Christians, just give it a listen and you’ll be blown away.  It’s been on my ipod for a few months, but I’ve just recently discovered the richness of Brandon Heath, especially this particular song- “No Not One”.  Other great songs on the album are: Give Me Your Eyes (no, it’s not encouraging stealing of others body parts), Trust You, and Love Never Fails.

Listen Here:

http://www.imeem.com/people/7HWiyl7/music/gl74Xnjf/brandon-heath-no-not-one/

No better word than from your lips
No perfect life than what you lived
No greater gift, no not one

No brighter star has ever shined
No better hope for all mankind
No higher mind, no not one

No one has ever known
This kind of love you’ve shown

There has never been a greater love
Than your son
No, not one
And there’ll never be a name above
No, not one
With his life you have forgiven us
Hope has come
Hope has come
And there will never be a greater love
No, not one

No image true or sweeter frame
No simple word can match your name
No greater fame
No not one

No one has ever seen
The depth of your majesty

No greater call
You gave us all a reason to live
No greater love
You gave us all a reason to give
No greater life
You gave us all a reason to shine
No greater love
Forever mine

God of Justice

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For those planning to attend this Sunday’s Prayer and Worship Night at FBC, here is just a taste of what you’ll see, and what we will be praying about for our city and community… it’s something that has been on my heart for quite some time, but read over the lyrics to Tim Hughes’  “God of Justice”, taken from Micah 6:8.  As we pray for our communities, let us remember the heart of our call as believers, and remember how simple it really is.

I often forget the simplicity of our call… Act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly…

God of Justice, Savior to all
Came to rescue the weak and the poor
Chose to serve and not be served

Jesus, You have called us
Freely we’ve received
Now freely we will give

We must go live to feed the hungry
Stand beside the broken
We must go
Stepping forward keep us from just singing
Move us into action
We must go

To act justly everyday
Loving mercy in every way
Walking humbly before You God

You have shown us, what You require
Freely we’ve received
Now freely we will give

Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out Lord

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The Lord’s Prayer

Our Father, who art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy Name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom,
and the power, and the glory,
for ever and ever.
Amen.
For a class I’m taking right now, there are several disciplines we have to experience, one of those is praying the Lord’s Prayer every day for a month.  Some days I wake up and right away, I remember to pray it, but more than just “pray it”, I try and think through what it means.  As a Christian, and really for anyone in any organized religion, it becomes easy for things to become routine, and by acting in those things that are required, we miss why they are important.
Just like we should all pray.
Just like we should all read our bibles.
It’s interesting how the disciples, of all the questions they could have asked Jesus, they ask to be taught how to pray.  Father tells us that we are on a personal level with God.  Hallowed reminds us of how holy he is, and how un-holy we are.  Asking for His Kingdom and will to be done gives God full power and control in our lives.  Asking for him to give us our daily bread teaches us to ask only for what we need, and to know that he will meet and provide that need.  Asking for forgiveness for our sins, and for those who have sinned against us teaches us humility as we place in God’s hand our own humanity.  The KINGDOM, the POWER, and the GLORY should belong to him forever, and we lift up these characteristics of God, knowing that he will show these things in our own lives, but to the entire world.
Maybe you’ve strayed, maybe intentionally, or maybe each day you’ve let yourself slip away from the Lord’s presence, whatever the case, sometimes it just begins with a prayer of faith, a verse of encouragement, but either way, he’s whispering for you, because he’s a Father who cares.

wounds, scars, and healing

I ran across this excerpt this morning, and thought I’d share it you all… hope you all have a great weekend!

FROM LONG EXPERIENCE of working with various traumas, I have come to believe that with a commitment to hard work and prayer, even the worst is healable. I don’t mean that a deeply wounded person will somehow be able to just go on with life as if the wounding never occurred. Scars can be redeemed and turned into gifts, becoming a source of wisdom, love, and even joy that can be tapped to help others. Again and again I have seen this happen as hurting people experience the healing of Christ. A deeply wounded, profoundly healed person is like a tree that has grown around a boulder; sometimes the tree actually incorporates the boulder into its structure. A boulder tree is especially beautiful and becomes an inspiration to those still struggling to grow around their own obstacles.

– Tilda Norberg
Gathered Together: Creating Personal Liturgies for Healing and Transformation

no more, please!

There seems to be a wave of movement coming over many congregations across the nation, and it’s no new problem to the church, yet “for such a time as this”, DIVISION is cutting the church at our legs, and leaving us sucking up dust from the ground.  And while we lay lifeless on the ground, all we can think about is how dirty we are, and why we should clean up before just getting up and continuing to RUN in this race. DISCLAIMER: yes, I will say some things about my own church, yet my purpose is simply to reveal changes that need to be made to many congregations, but should be applied to the universal church.

Over the past 3-4 months, and especially since my return from Thailand, I’ve found myself making a common mistake as a Christian, which is looking too much at my individual self, and not seeing enough of the bigger picture.

This is a call to the universal church.  Some may call this prophecy, but whatever it is, there is a severe and strong warning to the church: WE MUST UNITE.  WE MUST REACH THE LOST, BROKEN, and DYING in our world around us.

Not that any of this is new news, we’ve heard this for years and years, yet there has been a striking turn for many churches in the past year.  During these economic times of difficulty, there should be unity and re-casting of vision for the church, yet Satan knows this is a prime time to steal, kill and destroy.  Over and over again, I’ve heard repeatedly that the last year has been a very difficult for ministry.  Either this means things will get better, or it means that God is preparing his church, his bride, for war, for battles, for even GREATER DIFFICULTIES to come.

How is it that we’ve become consumers and so individualistic?  Our society screams these things at us, so it’s only natural that we would expect all these same requests from God, right?

Three years ago, I read “The Present Future” by Reggie McNeal, and I encourage any church leaders to read this book.  I still deeply agree with most of what this author and Christian leader says about the church today.  We are bound and locked into four walls, and yet we think people who are not Christians will bust through our doors looking for God.  REALITY CHECK: people who are “searching” or “seekers”, in this post-modern society will NOT look for these answers in God or church.  They’ll find it in other types of spirituality, or simply within themselves.  Oprah’s “religion” is a perfect example of this CULTIC attitude.

Broken down to tears last night, I realized that the issues within my own church body are much greater than what so many attendees are feeling toward the letting go of/agreement that our Pastor needed to move on.  The issue is not that “we don’t have a Pastor and we need one desperately”, it’s much greater.  The issue is that Satan, the DECIEVER, is causing us to focus more on our own problems rather than realizing that we are in a huge battle!!! For our church specifically, there are nearby apartment complexes filled with low-income families that need to see and EXPERIENCE the LOVE of JESUS CHRIST!!!

The purpose of the church is much like the role of the synagogue was in Biblical times, more specifically the intertestamental period (also known as the 400 years of silence between the Old and New Testaments in the Bible).  Everyone went weekly to the Temple to worship, make sacrifices, and give their tithing, but within Jerusalem and other cities, smaller communities of Jews used synagogues to worship more regularly, collect for the needs of their own smaller communities, and minister on a more individual basis.

The universal church needs to UNITE in our call to reach the lost and unsaved.  In Matthew 28, Jesus commissioned everyone, all Christians, to preach the gospel and spread his love to the ends of the earth.  Yet, he always prayed for unity for all the believers also.

I’m not saying that I’m a perfect example of all these things, but there needs to be a significant change in our mindset as Christians.  We don’t want to put ourselves in a bubble so that we are untouched by the world, yet we know we are not to conform to the patterns of the world, but rather be transformed by the renewing of our minds (Romans 12).  Our call is to minister to those who NEED love, who NEED grace, who just need to see the face of Christ.

I don’t intent to draw a pointing finger and my specific church in this blog, but seriously, why are we even here on earth still?  Obviously God calls all his people to himself, and if we are alive and breathing, we are to be SERVING.

Sorry, on my soap box, I’ll get down now.  But let us LOVE unconditionally as Christ loves, and let’s forget our own worries, wants, and hurts, and let’s SERVE our LIVING God.  Let us not forget that we have God’s Spirit- the HOLY SPIRIT in our hearts.  Let’s turn back to him.  Let’s remember that we are in a serious battle, a serious war, and engaging in a war for souls…. That means an eternity in heaven or hell is at stake.

I recently spent a great deal of time pouring over what the Kingdom of God is, and what that looks like on earth.  The truth is that this raging war, and battle is about the coming of the Kingdom of God.  Yes, it will come, but part of our role is to battle and war in the coming of the Kingdom of God.  Satan wants to break the church, the bride of Christ so that we are ineffective, and worthless.  He wants to trip us up so that we are no longer the hands and feet of Jesus Christ, he wants to DESTROY us.  Yet, we already know we have victory in Jesus Christ, and in the end, WE WIN.  SO LET’S KEEP FIGHTING!