I chuckle, but also I was stunned as I ran across this tonight. This was a blog I had written in an old notebook, to be posted I guess later that day. It was written in fall 2005, my Junior year of college, 20 years old, and actually reminds me more of what my realities were then, helps me understand where I used to stand on some things.
When you read, you’ll see why, it’s funny, but totally crazy too. Comments to come later.
November 13, 2005 11:22 a.m.
Currently, as I’m composing this blog, I’m sitting at Lisa Popeill’s “Workshop for Singing Non-Classical Styles” or something like that). Al I can say is I’M BORED! If I could, I would start walking back to Redding right now.
It’s all interesting, I completely agree. BUT I just don’t want to be here.
So, my mind is wandering, we’ll see what I feel like writing about. I wish I had a computer in front of me, instead of all these notes.
Anyway, I have been thinking quite a bit about many subjects. I’m thankful that God reveals things to us in his time. For quite a while, I always felt that I wouldn’t get married until I was much older, like 25 or 26 (even though it’s not THAT old). Anyway, but as of late, over this past summer, and this semester, I’ve begun to really pray for the Lord’s will on this subject.
(fast forward some boring things)
One of the reasons I’ve been thinking about this quite a bit has to do with what’s going to happen in my life after I graduate. For a while, I thought about graduate school, and it’s still in the back of my mind. but I really believe God is calling me to be a full-time Worship Pastor.
As a woman, I would be very fearful to enter into the ministry and be single. I mean, yes, I know I COULD do it, but without that support? I know if I had great friends around me, living with me, that would be AMAZING, but the truth is I don’t know where I’ll be going.
I know I could follow someone whether it’s a significant other or closer friend. Churches are everywhere, and always could have needs for Worship Pastors.
All I know is what God is calling me to… and I don’t really know what that’s going to look like. I’m just walking down a road, a path. I don’t know where I’m heading, but I know I’m following CHRIST with all that’s in me.