it’s beginning to… wait, it’s Christmas?

Aside from the glittering glam at all the malls I go to, I would have no clue it was Christmas!  But apparently it’s Christmas Eve-Eve today.  December 23rd.

The songs, food, lights and everything we prepared for the Christmas program have long faded, and the mess from two nights of programs has been cleaned.  Our first program was on Friday night, and it was the younger kids, and then the older kids were on Saturday night.  Here are a few pictures, just to give you a taste of the evening:

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Anyway, it was a good night, but I’m so glad it’s over.  I can hardly believe it.  It feels so weird that it’s all over.  We worked for 6 weeks to get ready, and it was all a whirlwind.  It was a lot of fun dressing up for the programs, myself and two of my roommates got dresses made for the program, and as you can see, they did a BEAUTIFUL job on my dress!  Over here, the tailors, and all clothing makers are amazing.  We all just brought in pictures of the styles we liked, and they made them for us!  I also have videos of all the songs for the younger kids, so eventually hopefully I’ll put those up.

I don’t really know who reads this blog anyway.. maybe mostly facebook people since it pops up!  Anyway, for the past three days I’ve laid low, and haven’t made any huge plans.  Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, and as of now, I plan on going in the morning to Hot Yoga at our gym, then hanging around our apartment for the rest of the day.  We have a Christmas Eve service at the church, and I’m singing a special song, so I figure I should get ready for that!

Christmas morning, Tiffany (a fellow teacher here at GES) and I will go over to our friends for breakfast, then we’ll have a Christmas Dinner at our Pastors’ home.  I’m so glad I’ll be surrounded by great people on Christmas day, it’ll be a great great time.  

My plans for this week were to: rest, have alone time, work out, and just RELAX.. which I’ve gotten to do so far, so I’d say it’s been a great break thus far.

This Saturday I’ll head down to the beach with several other teachers, then come back the following Friday.  I can’t believe it’s almost 2009!!  I think my next blog will be wrapping up 2008, and talking about 2009 goals… :).

Hope you are all well (whoever is reading this!).  Have a very Merry Christmas, and may you be reminded of your blessings as you’re surrounded by loved ones and you reflect upon the past year in all it’s trials and victories.  Love you all.

Four more…

days!  We have four more days of school, no school this Friday, but rather prep for our first program (Friday evening), then Saturday will be our second program.  I can’t believe it’s already here!  It seems like just yesterday we got back from our break in October.  

Christmas time here in Thailand feels like any other time in Thailand.  It’s still warm, yet cooler than when I first arrived and also during rainy season.  All the malls are decorated extravagantly, some even more than I’ve seen in NYC.  It’s like magic, or it would feel like magic if it were cold.  Christmas just isn’t Christmas when you aren’t home.  That’s what I’ve come to realize.

I need prayer for this week.  Stress-wise I’m doing just fine, but I have a feeling as the week goes on, it may get worse.  I’m also sick again.  I really need prayer for that.  I’m so discouraged.  I have been sick on and off for nearly 3 months now with one thing after another.  I had to miss our all-Staff Christmas party on Friday because I had a fever (again).  I think my body just isn’t used to being so warm all the time, and not having the seasons.  (Who ever would have thought I would say anything like that!)  Anyway, so just pray for healing in my body, and that I wouldn’t struggle with sickness for the rest of the year.  It really does a lot for well-being.  

We have a two week break again after our programs, and I’m really looking forward to some down time.  For the first week I will definitely be staying here, and enjoying the peace and quiet around campus for that time.  I will be spending Christmas Day with our Pastor and his family, which looking forward to.  Our church has a Christmas Eve service as well, which I hope to be involved with.  My friends will come back from a week in Chiang Mai on Saturday, the 27th, then we will take off for the beaches down south.  Maybe I already mentioned this.. in fact, I think I did, but none the less, I am really, REALLY glad to have a break soon.

Exciting news for Nonthaburi, we just had a mall put in near the school called “Central Plaza Chaengwattana” and I went there last night, but only for dinner, and was BLOWN AWAY!  It’s HUGE!  23 Stories to be exact!  Next time I go there, I’ll take some pictures, but I think it’s potentially one of the largest malls I’ve ever been to.  Downtown, “Siam Paragon” is rather large, so maybe it’s competing with that mall, but for way out here in Nonthaburi, this is definitely BIG NEWS.

Oh, so yesterday in the midst of my sickness, I went with a family of one of my students to a puppet play downtown.  It was actually really well done, and the puppets were controlled by 3 people, and performed traditional and modern Thai dances.  Here’s just a picture I pulled offline.. I’ll put more pictures up when I get them.

01Alright, well the night is quickly passing, and I need to head to bed early tonight.. for REAL!  I hope you all are well, and again I apologize for all the unnecessary concern from the email sent out last week!  I still feel awful about it!

Blessings and peace to you all!

get a strange email from me?

In case you didn’t receive my distress email… well, someone hacked into my email account, and sent out an email claiming I was in Africa and it was begging you to send me money.  NOT TRUE!

So, my old email address has now been shut down, and I can’t even access it anymore :(.  Therefore all my contacts.. gone, except for the once I could recover from the last update I sent out.

My new email is: meridithraejohnson@gmail.com, please disregard the email sent from my former address, and delete that address from your contacts, as it is no longer working!

Thanks… I’ll post a “real” update soon, but for now I’m off to enjoy my Saturday!

thai-gir (tiger)

The title of this blog has nothing to do with what I’m going to talk about, except that I should point out that L’s and R’s are frequently blended together in the Thai language. Thus the words “thai girl”, could easily sound like “tiger”.

It’s the end of another week. I have no clue where this week went… thankfully in this difficult time, the days seem to fly by. Tomorrow (Friday) is Father’s Day here in Thailand, because it’s the King’s birthday, so we have no school tomorrow. I was going to go with a few friends to Koh Samet, a beach about 3 hours away, but now I’m rethinking my decision… it might be nice to relax instead of constantly going, going, going. I’ll make my final decision later tonight I suppose.

On Sunday I rolled my ankle while running, something I’d never experienced until now. I’m still hurting, and have to be careful when I walk… here are a few pictures… one of my “normal” ankle, and then of my destroyed one 😦

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ANYWAY…I’m pretty sure there is some sort of mosquito nest in the Music Room.  Every time I’m at my desk for any period of time, I always seem to get bit all over!

Well, we have 8 more school days until Christmas break/Christmas PROGRAM time!  I’m focusing on not stressing about the programs… I don’t want another freak out like what happened with the Talent Show.  I know that it won’t go perfectly, but the parents will still be proud of their kids no matter what!  The songs are all mostly learned, so I’m not worried about that.  I’m just going to focus on sleeping at night, and breathing in an out in slow, deep breaths.  I wasn’t meant to stress.  It’s not healthy!

I’m feeling better from how I was before, but now it seems like I have allergies or something!  Just what I need.. and endless string of different sicknesses.  Please continue to pray for health.

Last night I saw Twilight with several other girls.  Great movie, I read the book this last week… and I finished in 3 days!  If you know me, you know I don’t normally get all sucked into these things, but it was so good!  I guess a part of me will always feel the same way as I did in High school, and that same girl is definitely still down there, no matter how old I may be!

Blessings to you all… hope life is well where you are, and remember God is always with us, guiding us, as always.

November 29

I’ve begun to write several blogs since my last update, but then I give up because I have so much to say, and just can’t seem to put it into words.

November really has flown by, as we all had anticipated.  Now we have 3 weeks, and 12 school days until the Christmas Program (and Christmas Break of course!).  Last weekend was the church retreat, which I mentioned earlier, and it went really well!  Aside from me being sick and running to the bathroom ever 10 minutes, it was wonderful!  Haha, I did spend a significant time sleeping and just relaxing, so that was nice. Here’s a picture from one of our worship times:

n1081742605_30200445_8292I’m not really sure what to say.  I’ve been going through times of such deep discouragement at times, marked by short times where I’m filled with so much joy that I can’t even explain.  I don’t even know how to be myself at times… if you’ve ever been overseas for a significant amount of time, I think you’d understand some of the things I’m describing.  It’s hard for me to think about making rational decisions about the future, when everything seems so cloudy at times.  My friend Joni and her husband Paul are the Youth Pastors at our church, and she told me once, “Here in Thailand, you never really feel ‘normal'”, which I think is the truth.  This isn’t my culture, this isn’t ever what I pictured my life to be, and therefore no wonder I feel so weird at times.  For the past week, I haven’t even been able to really eat Thai food.  That’s partly because when I got sick (for the second time) it had been because of some Thai food I ate.  So, I’ve been on an all-American food diet (consisting of : KFC, McDonalds, Pizza, Sandwiches….).

Anyway.  Our Thanksgiving day quickly passed, just like any other day that we’ve been here.  That night we did however eat a nice dinner ad McDonalds.  🙂  We will be having a dinner here at the school on Sunday with turkey, stuffing, pumpkin pie.. and everything else!  So that is definitely exciting.

In less than a week, I will also celebrate another significant event: my 6 month anniversary since arriving in Thailand.  I can hardly believe it.  It seems like it’s gone by really fast (which is good NOW I suppose!).  On June 5th I left home and arrived here in Bangkok.  In many ways, it still seems that I’m eternally stuck in June here.  It’s still hot, and everything is the same around me.  Weird.

Christmas break we will also have another two weeks off of school!  I’m not sure exactly what my plans are, but I will probably be heading back up to Chiang Mai to the orphanage we were at over October break, then a bunch of us will meet up on Phi-Phi (pronounced “pee pee”) Island to celebrate New Year’s together!  It’ll be nice to have another break, and try to feel not so far away from home over Christmas.

I’m told January-March goes by really fast, and isn’t quite as unbearable as things have been lately.  That’s a relief to hear.  Anyway, it’s now Saturday morning, and I’ve eaten my oatmeal breakfast, and now I’m going on a run before taking off to visit a friend downtown (and of course go shopping!).  Please keep me in your prayers, I know God has me here for a reason, and I need to hold onto the peace that I felt deep down when I first arrived here 6 months ago.  

 

Psalm 46

1 God is our refuge and strength, 
an ever-present help in trouble.

 2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way 
       and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

 3 though its waters roar and foam 
       and the mountains quake with their surging. 
       Selah

 4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, 
       the holy place where the Most High dwells.

 5 God is within her, she will not fall; 
       God will help her at break of day.

 6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; 
       he lifts his voice, the earth melts.

 7 The LORD Almighty is with us; 
       the God of Jacob is our fortress. 
       Selah

 8 Come and see the works of the LORD, 
       the desolations he has brought on the earth.

 9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; 
       he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, 
       he burns the shields with fire.

 10 “Be still, and know that I am God; 
       I will be exalted among the nations, 
       I will be exalted in the earth.”

 11 The LORD Almighty is with us; 
       the God of Jacob is our fortress. 
       Selah

almost the end of another week

Hello friends,

It’s almost Friday; I’m about to go to sleep which means I’ll wake in a few hours and begin another day!  So, I’ve decided I’m going to begin blogging about some of the every day happenings of my life here at GES, just to give you a better glance of my life these days!

Also, here again is the link to my pictures, which I am continually updating!  We just celebrated the Thai Buddhist holiday “Loy Kathrong” (I don’t know if that’s spelled correctly!), and have some fun pictures from that!  http://picasaweb.google.com/meridith.johnson

This is a short update, but check out this video from today.  We’re learning songs for our Christmas Program, and when Grade 3 began singing through this song, I was about to cry it was so sweet!  Anyway, they figured out my plot and began waving at the camera, but enjoy my sweet Grade 3 students singing about loving God!

November 11 update

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Friends and family,

Greetings from Thailand, sawatdeeka!  I can’t believe how much time has passed since I last updated you all.  Part of my delay has been because of how busy things have been, but the other part is due to some recent discouragement and just feeling quite burned out.  So to sum up the past few weeks:

On October 18th, we began our two week “October Break”, which marked the end of our first semester, and also now marks the half way point of our time here in Thailand.  I traveled with several friends to Cambodia, and we spent some good time on a deserted Island.. which was much needed!  It was a good time for reflection on the past 5 months, and time to pray about the coming months as well.  After about 10 days in Cambodia, we returned to Thailand, and my housemate Bridget and I traveled up north to Chiang Mai, which is the second largest city in Thailand.  We had a great time on motorbikes, and exploring the city, but I really started missing the kids by the second week of break!

Upon returning to GES, I was hit hard with sickness.  Strangely, it all began back on the day we left for vacation, and I’m STILL in the process of recovering.  Being sick has been part of my discouragement lately, but thankfully I’m now starting to feel better.

Last week, our first week back, we immediately hit the ground running getting ready for “Overnight camp”, which we left for last Thursday, November 6.  I went with the older kids (6th Grade-12th Grade) away to a camp that was about an hour away.  I also was in charge of worship for the weekend, which was also an interesting experience.  Honestly, in the 130 kids that were there, probably 15 are Christians, so I guess I just didn’t know how to approach leading worship for them.  We DO have chapels every week, but I’m involved with the younger kids for that time, so I rarely join the older kids for chapel.  Anyway, all in all, camp went well… minus several kids getting sent home for alcohol and guys/girls in each other’s rooms.  I hope it was an experience that later in life they will look back on and remember, even if it didn’t impact them at the time.

Something I’ve been thinking about lately is just morality in general, and what drives people to understand and know right vs. wrong.  I can’t motivate these kids to make good choices based on “doing good because you believe in God and are a Christian”, because they aren’t Christians, and don’t believe in God.  They go to the temple every morning or evening and pray to Buddha.  Some of them could care less about making good choices.  But I do believe in every person, there is an ability for people to know what is right and what is wrong based on basic human instinct.  In most movies, you see good and evil, and when you view these films, it’s easy to see and desire for the characters to choose right over doing what is wrong.  Anyway, it’s definitely had me thinking quite a bit recently.

I know discouragement is a natural part of any job you do, at any time in life, but I know right now it’s an attack on the work we are doing here in Thailand.  We are touching lives here and making a huge difference, and because of that, I know Satan is threatened.  We have 6 weeks until our Christmas Break, and in that time I will plan and put together TWO Christmas Programs, and be busy as ever!  Pray that I won’t continue feeling so stressed, overwhelmed and discouraged.  Other than the stressful, looming programs over my plate of responsibilities, I’m still really enjoying being blessed to teach Music here at GES, and I count it a privilege to teach them about who God is through those songs.

As of right now, I’m really missing American things… and the comfort of being “home”.. as in the States.  I know it’s just a season, so hopefully it will be over soon, as it makes being here more difficult mentally and in other ways.  

 

Here are some things you can be in prayer about for me:

1. Planning and preparation for the Christmas programs
2. Regular teaching/ planning
3. Leading worship for our upcoming Church retreat (November 21-23)
4. Getting through  the holiday season without missing home too much 😦
5. Continue to be a light to all the students at GES through actions and words

Please also be in prayer as I constantly have the future in mind.  God has given me the grace to be here in Thailand for now, but the more time that passes, I have realized the depth of my passion for worship, and to pursue worship ministry.  I will be beginning an online Master’s degree in Teaching starting in January, through Liberty University, which I’m looking forward to, but I’m not quite sure that will determine my future. 

I miss you all, and would love to hear from YOU!

With love from Thailand,
Meridith Rae

https://somehowbeautiful.wordpress.com 
meridith.johnson@gmail.com
1.541.255.2159

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October break

The stress of report cards and grading is over.  This week has been MUCH more relaxed, and right now my Grade 4 Music class and myself are enjoying “The Sound of Music”.  Very educational.  Definitely.

So October break is just a matter of days away, and I can’t wait!  The strange thing is that when we return, it will be November, which is just weird!  Things here are just as warm as ever, though I’ve noticed it’s getting slightly cooler, either that or just the humidity hasn’t been quite as awful as it normally can be.  It’s still a pleasant, and sometimes unbearable, 85-100 degrees F. I still just can’t get over the fact that this has been the “longest summer ever”, since back in the states things are really cooling down.  

I should also mention that once I return from October break, we will be half way done with the school year, which also means half way done with my time here in Thailand!  It’s strange to think… the time has really been going by quickly.  But, just like during any race, the point where you turn around and retrace your steps back to the finish-line are often the most difficult, and mentally the most exhausting.  Keep myself, and all my fellow teachers in your prayers.

So, for our much anticipated break, myself and 3 of my friends will be flying out on Saturday to Cambodia (as I’ve talked about MANY times in my blog!).  We will spend about 10 days relaxing on the beach, going to remote islands, hiking, exploring, singing (I’m bringing my guitar, OF COURSE!), and having a good old time!  We’ll be going to a remote island called “Bamboo Island” where we will have our own bungalows for about $15 USD a night.  We’ll get to go on boat rides around the island to watch the sunset, and during that they catch fish that are then cooked up for dinner at night!  I’m so excited!!!  (Can you tell??).  It’s been a long few weeks, and it will be so nice to relax, sleep, and really think through the last 5 months of my life here in Thailand.  After our trip, a few of us will head up north to Chiang Mai (the second largest city in Thailand).  We’ll do some sight seeing, rent motorbikes, hike around, and CHILL!

Anyway, my lack of sleep is definitely catching up with me this week!  It’s been taking me longer and longer to fall asleep at night which means that I’m definitely dragging now.  Pray that I can get rest over the break!  I really need it!

Anyway, when we come back, I am in full swing to start us on learning songs for the Christmas Programs (yes, I said programS) that I am in charge of.  There is one program for the younger, then one for 4th through 12th.  But anyway, this blog is about VACATION, not stressing about school, which I tend to do WAY too much!

Alright, well I will be out of touch for the next couple weeks, as I’m not going to bring my distraction of facebook and my labtop with me.  Pray for safety during our flights, train rides, bus rides etc… It should be a very restful time that God has given to us!

Blessings and peace,
Meridith Rae

Spiritual Warfare and PE

What happened today in gym class will forever be imprinted in my memory. I’m still in shock thinking about the situation.

At GES, this is the first year we have began to have Korean students enrolled at our school. From the beginning of the year, there were many problems right off the bat. I have two Korean students in my 7th grade PE and History classes, so I’ve tried to build good, trusting relationships with Airy and June. At the beginning of the school year, we had several problems with Airy in classes. There were a couple situations with her male English and male Science teachers, so we began to pray for her, as it was clear there was something going on deeper down that we might not ever know about.

She had episodes where she would throw herself on the ground, scream and cry, and just throw fits and yell loudly in Korean. Of course we would try to be understanding, but it’s hard when there’s a serious lack of communication in the entire situation, on both parties.  GES is GLOBAL ENGLISH school, we are NOT an International School, so most of our students are Thai.  But, the reality was and is that she was thousands of miles away from home, and away from her parents, so it’s no wonder she acts the way she does.

Airy left Thailand for over a month, and none of us really knew what was going on with her. Every time I spoke with June, or the other Korean students, I told them to tell her I missed her, and hoped she was well. (There are about 6-8 others who are all somehow related to each other).

Anyway, Airy showed up at classes again about 3 weeks ago, but she seemed more relaxed that before. Of course, I could never count on her to attend History, or even PE. Last week, she just up and left PE because she “felt bad”, and didn’t think to tell me, her teacher. She’s always very defiant with me, and never ever seems to think the rules apply to her in any way, shape, or form. I have to confess I definitely lack a compassionate heart and understanding for her right now.

Every Thursday from 2:10-3:10 Grade 7 PE class joins Grade 5 PE class for usually a game of Dodge Ball or something Dodge Ball related. So today was a bit different because it started raining pretty hard just around 2 PM, so both Miss Shaela and I gathered in the Gym for PE.  Today we decided to start out with some “team building ” activities where they would be forced to work together and decide how to acomplish the goal we set before them.

Anyway, things were seemingly going really well.  Airy was her typical self, not wanting to participate in any of our activities, so I worked with her a bit on understanding what we were asking.  Not more than a few minutes later, I walked over and came to see that she was literally STRANGLING one of our new students in Grade 5, Tanna, and shouting “SAY YOU’RE SORRY!” over and over again.  I was just in shock, and finally asked her over and over again to let go of him.  Tanna just stood there looking like he was about to cry because he just had NO idea what was going on.

Miss Shaela took charge of the situation and invited Tanna to come outside of the gym with her, and also asked Airy to come with her.  Airy made it clear that she was not going to go outside.  By this time there was a crowd of students listening and watching as the situation unfolded.  

I then began to distract all the students as Miss Shaela continued to help solve the problem.  They finally walked out of the gym, and I continued acting like it wasn’t a big deal, so that none of the kids would be worried about the situation.  I then had all the kids sit in a circle, and as we were settling into our spots, Airy bursts into the gym yelling histarically in Korean and walking up to several students specifically and acting as if she was going to physicially hit them.  June then started yelling at her, and then at all the students warning them to be careful.

I tried to ask June what she was saying, but he acted pretty upset as well, and bursted out of the gym (I didn’t know at the time, but he had gone upstairs to get some of the other Korean girls- her cousins, to help in the situation).  At this point Shaela and I were in shock, but knew there was a chance that harm could come to our students.  Shaela had to hold Airy physically with all her strength to force her out of the gym, and all the while Airy was still shouting in Korean.  On the way out of the gym, the entire rack of shoes was knocked over, and Airy had begun to PUNCH Shaela with all her might.  (Mind you, Airy is pretty small, and I don’t think this was her actual physical strength at this point).

It left the students in shock.  Me as well.  We called our Administrator, and the other girls also came downstairs.  Airy had just completely lost it, and was still throwing a fit outside in the rain.  Shaela came back to the gym fighting tears as it was just a shocking experience overall.

I know there is some demonic presence in her life, and it’s hard for all of us teachers to know what to do.  Lisa, who is a missionary here in Thailand, has really helped in the situation, really has encouraged us to continue to pray for her, and be understanding.

It’s a good wake up to remember that we are in a battle here on earth, and people do live with demonic presences in their lives and hearts.  Obviously it’s a difficult situation to witness, but I know something good will come out of all of this.  

Ephesians 6:11-13

Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

pictures and short update

Tomorrow is the big Talent Show I’ve been organizing.. which is why if you’ve tried to call or email, you may not have gotten a response.  I’ve been so stressed about it, but after our practice today, I’m feeling much better about everything.  Basically I’m the “Director” in charge of EVERYTHING, but the nice things is that the students themselves have prepared the acts, so I don’t have to worry about that!  I’ll post pictures when it’s all said and done!

To get away from the stress, a few of us went to see “Mamma Mia!” last night… it was AWESOME!  Okay, if you hate musicals, you may not enjoy it as much, but by the end of the movie I was ready to DANCE!  It was so cute, and reminded me of all the songs my parents used to sing to us back in the day :).  

OH, and in Nonthaburi, and every other city near the river are preparing for a potential flood! September will be one of the rainiest months in Thailand, as well as into October, and apparently some of the cities north of us have had some flooding, so everyone is gearing up, and stocking up on food.  We all have been buying water, and non-perishable food items to keep in our rooms upstairs, and as soon as it looks like it will flood, we’ll have to move all our furniture upstairs, and then be trapped in our house if it in fact DOES flood.  Of course, if we know in advance, we would evacuate up north to Chiang Mai, but it’s difficult to predict when or if it in fact will flood.  BUT, if we are trapped, I have lots of nuts, small soy milk boxes, peanut butter, and cereal.  Such a great selection, I KNOW!  🙂

Good news, we have 43 days until October break!  I can’t wait!  I’ll be flying to Cambodia, then taking an overnight train to Vietnam with several friends.  Should be a great relaxing break, and I’m excited to sight see around the both countries!  (I’m not sure if I already talked about October break, but it’s quite possible I did, because we are all looking forward to it!!)

Anyway, I’m praying a lot about what the future will bring, even though I know I have plenty of time to decide.  All the schools in Thailand are beginning to expect much more out of foreigners who want to come to teach, so if I do stay, I will for sure need to begin pursuing a teaching certificate, or MAT degree this January.  Decisions, decisions.  

Here’s a video I’ve made with my pictures up until this point.. for your viewing pleasure:

Thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, letters and emails!  May God bless you all!