Life has been really challenging for me lately. The balance of what “could be” and what “should be”. Redemption. Reconciliation. I just don’t get it. It’s so hard. Trying to follow God, but seriously, seriously having so many doubts I can’t even begin to name them right now. Challenging puts it lightly.
I have so little faith it’s not even funny. How could it be funny?
What am I doing and where am I going?
Then this morning, a song from the distant past started playing on my playlist. I cried. I was moved. Dare you to move. Move. Don’t be still. Don’t just let it all happen.
“Dare you to move. Dare you to move. Dare you to lift yourself up off the floor…
The tension is here, the tension is here, between who you are and who you could be, between how it is and how it should be…
Maybe redemption has stories to tell, maybe forgiveness is right where you fell, but when you run to escape from yourself, where you gonna go? Where you gonna go? Salvation is here.”
I don’t know what to say. But salvation is here. You can pick yourself up. And move. I can pick myself up and move. Toward God. Toward hope. Toward peace.