pacing. walking. turning. breathing.
sleep. wake. eat. breathe.
and repeat again.
and just keep going.
keep on running.
almost there. almost past it. almost back to the beginning.
then i’m one step behind where i thought i was.
just keep going. you’re almost there. one more step.
will i ever be there? will it ever be over?
will the sting ever really go away? without it just being masked?
can a small piece of scotch tape really fix what stitches, or surgery should fix?
can the pain ever be taken away by a temporary fix?
a rush of cool water. to make the blood wash away.
a disinfectant. hurts. yet can heal.
a binding bandage. thick enough to cover it.
stop touching it. stop picking at it.
let it heal.
but sometimes, i just can’t.
washed in the water. cleansed by the blood.
a long time ago.
washed and cleansed.
but sometimes i relive the pain. to know the experience was real.
to remember i’m real.
to recount what might have been my fault.
to second guess.
stop picking at it.
LET IT HEAL.
and just keep running.
toward the goal.
the heavenly prize.
forward. move forward.