what i miss the most

Let’s be honest here.  Is that okay?  Well, I am making it okay, especially because this is MY blog after all.

I don’t miss “home” per se, but there are many things, comfort things, that I miss about the United States of America.  The things that are “normal” here in Thailand aren’t really “normal” to me, and that makes sense.  I didn’t grow up here, and I’m certainly not completely understanding of all those things after being here only 3 months.

  • I miss my car, and being able to go anywhere anytime I want.
  • I miss huge salads from Red Robin.
  • I miss being able to speak in English when I go somewhere and have people understand me.
  • I miss not feeling like I stick out wherever I go.
  • I miss not sweating all the time, everywhere you go.
  • I miss my hair being normal.
  • I miss Sarah being around to cut my hair.
  • I miss being in the same time zone as everyone.

I’m sure I could extend this list longer.  Some things have begun to ware on me, but I know those things will pass.  Don’t get me wrong, I love being here in Thailand, but sometimes I just wish I could know what the future holds.  I could see myself staying here for longer than just one year, but then again I could see myself coming back to the States.

I’m not the best at trusting, and for that I must confess that I have depended too much upon myself.  I know when I begin feeling overwhelmed that at that very moment I need to stop, and begin to pray.  For I know at that moment I’m relying on myself and my own strength.

The hardest is not knowing.  For a while I did so well at not worrying about the future and taking life one moment at a time, but right now I’m worrying, and asking many questions that I should leave up to the LORD.

Pray for me.  Pray for all of us teachers.  Thailand is a place where it is easy to get discouraged, and I myself have been dealing with that lately. 

God is good, and God is so faithful.  I know this to be true.  That doesn’t stop me from wanting to bawl my eyes out right now…. I’m not even sure why.  

Thanks for listening friends, again, please pray for us.  Everyday we give and give to students who do not know the LORD, and that alone can be quite taxing, and can seem very energy-consuming.

This song has been a blessing to me, pray these words of truth wherever you are today.

“Desert Song” by Hillsong

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is the God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it’s way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be empited again
The seed I’ve recieved I will sow



“Does Sorrow lay his hand upon your shoulder,
and walk with you in silence on life’s way, 
While Joy your bright companion once, grown colder,
Becomes to you more distant day by day?
Run not from the companionship of Sorrow,
He is the messenger of God to thee;
And you will thank Him in His great tomorrow —
For what you do not know now, you then will see;
He is God’s angel, clothed in veils of night,
With whom “we walk by faith” and “not by sight”.”

2 Corinthians 5:7 KJV 

3 thoughts on “what i miss the most

  1. Meridith, you’ll never know how really proud we are of you. We love you and miss you. Please know that we’re praying for you individually and in groups. It’s so wonderful to see you and Angela serving God in this way and growing up and closer to God. It’s OK to have fun, splurge, be afraid, make mistakes, get sick, and miss things. These things all make you stronger, wiser, more understanding, and draw you closer to God. Keep up the good work. Love & prayers, Dale Heath.

  2. I have a plan…since you are missing things from here and I am missing things from there, let’s engage in a little exchange or trade, if you will, which will make the both of us happy?
    It’s good to be honest about the struggles, the discouraging times. Praying for you that you have the right people around you to encourage you and that you have a sense of purpose for now and the future as you look on each day, looking for what God is trying to teach you.
    Take care of my country. I admire your work, working the soil, the harvest, for the kingdom.

  3. I love that song! =) Hillsong makes some of the most inspiring songs I have ever heard.

    Can I just say that (even if I don’t personally know you, I just suddenly decided to go blog-hopping this extremely boring afternoon) I think what you’re doing is a great thing. I have a friend who just went to the US recently to teach there, just like what you are doing now. You remind me very much of him. Keep the fire of your faith burning. I’ll pray for you. =D

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